❝ no one wanted play with me as a little kid. so i've been scheming like a criminal ever since. to make them love me and make it seem effortless.an exploration of :           the dark mind of the lead soldier of the fullcrest armydark, gruesome, fantasy oc haruki rin from seacrest island loved by txunamy / ccany + neo prns. EST. @luvcc.

▍ ❝   RULE ONE.
do not copy or steal my oc, graphics or art used. some art does belong to me & it wouldn't be fun to find out it got stolen. all other art & visage belongs to the owners unless stated otherwise. sometimes i do lose motivation or just flat out forget to respond. please don't think i'm ignoring you! i do also have school & other responsibilities, so just please be patient with me!!▍ ❝   RULE TWO.
i do roleplay via dms but only with people i'm close with. MBs, priv disc servers, etc are good to roleplay in. discord is listed above if needed to contact me for any reason on there. i am advance lit / novella type of writer so starters / replies will be long. try to match the length as best as you, but please do not do any one liners. it is a little annoying to write a very detailed response to just a one liner in return.

▍ ❝   RULE THREE.
dead dove content will be used with this oc due to certain lore subjects i have made for her. if you are uncomfortable with that then do not interact. i do not want anyone to be triggered by any means. a lot of things regarding her will be detailed due to her being very developed. certain characters & lore elements have been developed by me and my friends so please keep that in mind since they may or may not get mentioned.▍ ❝   RULE FOUR.
nsfw will only be done if we are close to one another or if the relationship is strong enough. language is fine & will be used a lot. a lot of gruesome / gorey topics will be talked about & can be discussed what is & isn't okay beforehand ( if you aren't already aware of the stuff i talk about with this character ). again, i do not want to trigger anyone!! i do self ship & project onto this oc; i can ship with other people's ocs as long as we have discussed it & build up to it most ( if not all ) mental disorders discussed are what i am clinically diagnosed with.

❝ Once upon a time... haruki rin's story starts in the beautiful town of seacrest island where she had been born on september 3, her parents being somewhat poor. seacrest island was filled up with merchants & soldiers which inspired her to be a soldier. she stayed up each day, training to get better to be able to provide for her family.moving to fullcrest was a somewhat new change for her. one that she was very happy about. she spent countless hours planning and trying to calculate each move so she wouldn’t mess up. & before she knew it, she had become part of the fullcrest army.her skills having been what got her there. though, sometimes she would wish her skills weren't as good as they actually are. being a knight didn't help her feel normal like she once had; it was like moving to fullcrest had changed her completely. in both good & bad ways.

fullcrest is a place haruki has called home for many years now; being close to many people while also staying hidden in the shadows in many ways. now she could prove herself and provide for her family. though, during the war.. everything seemed to go downhill from there. losing beau rochefort had been the worst pain that's she's ever had to go through in her life.finding out her disgusting secret, she had been basically isolated by everyone. everyone besides emera shire cadel. they seemed to be the only person she had left after the war. the two spent many months traveling with one another; in an attempt to heal from the mental & physical pain the great war had caused. haruki was meant to be all alone, right? maybe that's why mori had disappeared; to get away from her. she didn't know, but, she did know that emera was enough.

▍ ❝   I.
_*** dark violent nights seem to plague her mind. memories of forgotten and destroyed lands. ones where she had been the cause of it. ones where she had killed families all for the sake of being pleased with herself. ones where she had barely escaped with her life. harsh fights and harsh words seemed to never leave her mind, plaguing her with her own feeling of pity and disgust. all for the sake of herself..      dark days seem to make her feel worse. haruki is a sensitive girl. one who takes words to heart and uses them to make herself be better. one who allows words to crawl and infect her skin. one who allows herself to get so caught up with herself that she pushes others and their feelings away. one who is not fit for friends or the feeling of relaxation. one who is thoroughly messed up in the head. haruki tries her best. tries her best to be good. to help others. to not shed blood unless needed. to allow her family a good life. to allow herself a good life.

▍ ❝   II.
each critic fester up in her body, eating away at it and causing her to drastically change herself just to fit other’s view of her. their cruel words shooting daggers into her heart, her mind being consumed with dark thoughts. each lie she’s been told, each harsh word she’s heard, each disapproving look she’s been giving, all fester up and drive her mad. everything drives her mad. makes her feel lost. useless. like a mistake. iall these feelings come from each word she’s ever heard. she’s not quite sensitive but does care an unhealthy amount of people’s opinions of her. does she deserve this? yes. does it hurt her to know she deserves this? yes. in her own eyes, she was never good enough to have all the things she had.

▍ ❝   III.
a shy girl plagued with her own self-deprecating thoughts works hard to prove herself to others, hoping they will approve of her & accept her. striving to provide and make her family proud, he uses all her time and strength to make herself the best soldier to live just so people could be proud of her. a girl with a disgusting secret that she forces herself to hide from everyone; not wanting to be isolated like she's been her entire life.

▍ ❝   VERSE ONE : MODERN.
modern verse has haruki more laid back & less uptight. she spends more of her time with her best friends rather than anyone else really has a grunge / skater girl style. in the modern verse, she is a librarian who spends more time reading rather than working. not that it matters much, the library she works at doesn't really have a lot of people coming in.

▍ ❝   VERSE TWO: POPSTAR / BAND
popstar / band verse has haruki shy & not much of a fan of the spot light. her style is a little bit more coquette while still having a bit of grunge. in the popstar / band verse, she is the drummer of a band that is made with yuka luna ryo & charlie europa voclain. though, she is not a big fan of the fame & attention she gets from people, wanting to stay in the shadows.

▍ ❝   VERSE THREE : APOCALYPSE
apocalypse verse has haruki in more of her normal fantasy verse state; always seemingly on alert & worried about everything. her style being consistent to the other different verses; mostly being loose clothing to move easier. in the apocalypse verse, she spends most of the time fighting zombies & making sure to have enough supplies for herself and her friends. she is a main survior.

@noble-rogue emera shire cadel best friend / sibling figure created by jinx !@K1NG-- beau rochefort best friend / brother figure created by riu !@despairprncess yuka luna ryo close friend created by me!@L0VEISMS keichi flyn balotelli acquaintance created by me !@L0VEISMS mizuki wren rika acquaintance / frenemy created by me !@L0VEISMS charlie europa voclain enemy created by me !

@L0VEISMS mori aella ryo love interest created by me !*** NOTE: others will be added when need / as her timeline expands